What has life become today???

So for the past few days, all I have been doing is thinking! Yes I know, all of us think so you might be thinking what is new about that???? Well, life these days seems really empty. Every morning I wake up to look for that one thing that might make it seem full or a better word for that is complete..... :) but in some way or the other, that feeling creeps back inside.
Sometimes I wonder whether we are living in an illusion, we think we know what we want in life but in reality is that what we really want? I thought I knew what I wanted in my life but it turns out that I keep questioning myself everyday.
Does anybody else feel that way? Or is it just me? Where has all the focus in life gone? Today, smiling, laughing and being happy has become a thing of the past for me. I smile, I laugh but I still feel like I am missing something. I know, I know, I keep going on about this missing thing in my life but it bugs me to feel this way!
Doesn't anybody else feel unsatisfied with life sometimes? Don't you people question your life? What can you do about all those questions? have you ever thought about it?

For now, I can share something with everyone:

And a Poem I wrote out:

Thinking of you has become a habit,
But thinking of you, thinking of me,
Is like a dream come true.

For Old times' sake,
I want to hold your hand,
For Old times' sake,
I want to be in your arms,
For Old times' sake,
I want my lips to touch yours,
Just for Old times' sake....

This has become a wait,
This has become a wish.
There's still more memories to make,
So let us give it one chance,
Because thinking of you has become a habit.....

The House on the Rock, Wisconsin, USA

House on the Rock, first opened in 1959, is a complex ruangan2, roads, gardens, and shops with unique architectural designs by Alex Jordan, Jr.. Is located in Spring Green, Wisconsin, and is a regional tourist attractions. The Infinity Room at the house that extends several hundred feet from the valley, without a buffer below, with more than 3000 hand-made windows on the side.

That Phase....

Amongst the crowd, we still find ourselves alone, amongst our own friends we feel like strangers. It happens sometimes in life, when all we are trying to do is figure out what is going to happen next. That feeling is out of our control and sometimes it is quite overwhelming. How can we live in the present moment to the fullest when something else is on our mind??
How ironic can it get when everything you do reminds you of something you do not want to remember. Sometimes, the whole world seems like it's against you, why do we feel like nobody really understands us and why is it that we can't speak out our mind? And when we finally say how we feel, why do we feel so stupid????? This I feel is the most difficult phase of life, when you do not know what it is that you want and why you have certain feelings that are hard to let go of.........

Good for nothing....

Making an effort for somebody who doesn't care???? I do not think that is a really good idea! NOT a good idea, a very BAD idea!!!!!!!!! Well, Something like that has happened to me. I am falling for somebody who has no clue of how I feel or rather, maybe they just don't want to know how I really feel. That is fair enough, I mean, we do not always end up with somebody that we really like.
This Reminds me, when love comes over you, life can get really awesome or it can get really mean and this depends on an individual's situation. My life is acting a little mean at the moment. I miss somebody that I fell in love with a very long time ago. And now, ofcourse there isn't an looking back but that feeling is still very strong! How can a person still feel the same for somebody even after years????

It only hurts because it matters.....

How often do we get offended and hurt because of people we care about? This question is in reality quite rhetorical. Over the past few weeks, my mind has done a lot of thinking and evaluation of lots of different things. I thought about the time when I was in primary school, the only thing I had to worry about was whether I have done my homework, packed my bag right and whether mum has packed lunch for me. Then came high school, I started changing, friends were becoming a big part of my life. Small things started to matter more, I wanted a phone, I wanted the best clothes and we all had an indirect competition as to who looks the best.... wow, I really must have grown up!!
Then came the boys and attraction here and there, very normal! haha! The world seemed like a whole new place, and suddenly, the world seemed to revolve around me (little did I know!). Well, just as I thought that phase was over, love was in the air. The world seemed to look like the most beautiful place (not that it isn't).  Craziness took over and life changed. It was the best feeling.

Today, looking back has made me realise how shallow I was at that time. But as they say, with time we realise what we don't want. Now, it's really time to just allow myself to think and of the little Ithat I have thought, I know that being in love does not need to end, so I haven't let it end. Things and people who hurt us are only those who matter to us. So there is nothing unusual in that. But if one has the courage to love someone, one should also have the courage to let go of that someone and move on with life. And if we never give up on life, then why should we give up on love?

On that note, I would love to share a beautiful Snap I took in the MARA, it reminds me of all the beautiful moments that will never return....